Sunday, April 09, 2006
This is one of those days when I feel like I've been out of touch with so many of my friends for so long that hardly anyone really gives a shit about li'll ol me anymore.
Baaaaaaah.
The past 4 years were packed with ccas, studies, council, army and relationships where I made dozens of friendships, yet I never seem to stay in close contact with them once the activities have died down. (With the exception of my few council buddies of course.. Thank God for y'all, my bruddas! :) I see my friends making plans, having fun and moving on with life, and I cant help thinking that I've been missing from a big part of so many of my friends' lives, if only I'd made the effort to keep the friendships going.
And its humbling that I only feel it now, when the activities (ie bloody army) have stopped aruptly, leaving me with too much free time, and too much time on my own. And it IS awkward to re-establish friendships, but I suppose I've gotta do it, I dont wanna lose the people that have made me truly happy these past 9 years of my life.
So dear friends, if I've ever been a bastard and sacrificed our friendship for all the activities, the work, and all the other "cool" things that I thought could define me before, I'm sorry. I shall be a good friend keeper from today onwards.
On a happier note, I'll most probably be leaving for the US of A in 10 days' time to join my longestbestestwonderfulest gal pal Debbie up at my future college UPenn! Dont worry, I'm not leaving to study just yet, just taking an opportunity to check the place out before I hand in my College Housing and student visa app, and to pop by NYC and Niagra Falls while I'm at it. A decision made purely on impulse just yesterday, and which will cripple me by at least $2000. Well, I did say I was going to travel after army, and I did say I was gonna go visit Penn, however unneccessary it may be. But who cares? It's time I did something expensive, silly, and mindblowingly fun.. Cant wait!
he rocked the party at 6:01 AM |
