Friday, November 28, 2003
Lessons learnt when meeting up with an aquaintance who became a friend:
1. My blog is more heavily scrutinized than i thought.
2. My blog has been read and analyzed by more people than i thought.
3. I have a very bad memory, but you knew that already.
4. A woman's perspective is essential in grad night shopping, especially if it involves fussy turning down of okay-looking outfits to find that perfect one.
5. Baby talk is most effective when replacing the "r"s with "w"s, like "twee! bwanch! woot! weaf!"
6. The best way to know what perfume you're wearing is to smell your own hair.
7. Tampines Mall toilets are one of the best in singapore.
8. I finally know what tank tops look like. They're probably called tank tops cause they're squarish, look have a rigid shape and hence a tank (?)
9. When in doubt, bring a bag along. You'll need it.
10. Guys should ALWAYS carry the shopping bags, and not drop them especially if they contain a handphone.
11. The Nokia 6100 is a very soft phone, can use it as a pillow (?)
12. Bulky shopping bags in a bookstore are worse than a bull in a china shop.
13. Shopping bags are extremely useful for shielding against the rain. (Not for me of course)
14. When attempting to get from Point A to Point B, which involves running in the rain, always plot your route first before running, or you'll end up getting wetter.
15. Women's shoes and men's shoes are NOT found in the same department.
16. Girls with long hair have to tie their hair before eating.
17. To avoid scandalous gossip, always forewarn anyone you meet that an outing can be totally platonic, with no implications whatsoever. When will the world learn?
18. There's a much faster way to get to the esplanade bay by using the escalator and walking outside. (d'oh! didnt know that)
19. Brother bear's brother is NOT his mother. (go figure that one yourself). Disney films always have a corny, goosebump-inducing ending.
20. I believe i know alot of people.
21. The Fish and Co fishy christmas tree makes an ideal present.
22. A guy should ALWAYS rush when he visits the washroom, just in case (horrors!) the girl finishes before him and has to wait for him! (k that didnt happen.. i was early both times!)
23. Cartier is the name of a world famous jewellery store! Wow i didnt know that!
24. A girl always knows when you're tired, even if you try to hide your yawn. (but that doesnt mean that the company's boring!)
25. Making a new friend IS a great feeling, emails can form a friendship after all. A platonic friend of the opposite gender to yak to is a simple pleasure of life. So kelly, thanks for a great day! :)
Wait wait, stop stop, stop thinking that im having an affair or something. You understand e word "platonic"? Yeah baby.. platonic! All you stupid people with sneering looks of "stupid flirt", maybe you should learn something bout that too. My girl had full knowledge of my outing, she was out with her friends as well! And it doesnt take a genius to know that yep, i love her very much. :)
So there! Cant a guy go out with a female friend and not be e subject of suspicion and controversy?
he rocked the party at 9:06 AM |
Thursday, November 27, 2003
Yep.. its the end of official A levels of course. :)
Wait first things first before i revel in new found "freedom", have to say one thing:
Dont you dare come up to me and say, "Haha lionel you still have to study, nyah nyah nyah. Have fun studying for s paper!"
Cause had about a billion people telling me that today. Grr. Shaddap!
(have a feeling all you evil souls are gonna cut and paste that last sentence and paste it on the comments.) Now why did i plant that thought in your head for? Well nyah nyah nyaah back to ya cause i dont care! *sticks out tongue*
Just had the time of my life watching looney tunes back in action with part of the council-take-bus-93 gang. My gosh, i'd forgotten the simple pleasures of sitting back and laughing your head off over a brainless movie. Sheer bliss.
For those who havent seen it, quick go watch it! Its the perfect after-exam movie, its so hilarious, it had me in stitches almost throughout the movie. So unbelievably corny, spas, and slapstick (okay a bit TOO slapstick) punctuated with clever spoofs and scenarios, (coincidentally, the ingredients for a perfect council skit), simply lovely. :)
Honestly, i dont care about S paper, i'd much rather not turn up on that day really. But knowing me, i'll end up going for it anyway. Which is why that stupid nagging feeling of "you still have to study" keeps hanging over my head. Chances of doing well are extremely slim, given my school's pathetic preparation strategies for s paper, but yes, my parents paid $40 for it, i'll never know till i go for it...blah blah. So yeah, i'll still end up going for it.
I must keep telling myself i'll study on sunday and heck the rest. Oh screw you, stupid s paper.
Oh btw, ive got a spanking new haircut! Shorter than my last one tho, i look like an NS guy now. (yes yes, why pay $26 for something you'll get for free in a few weeks?)
Am going grad night shopping tomorrow!!
he rocked the party at 8:26 AM |
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
P.A.R.T.(wh)Y???
Cause there's only one more day!!
In 24 hours i shall be watching looney tunes back in action, making plans for friday, with my new haircut in place, pocket feeling much lighter after splurging on the arcade, pool, and other brainless indulgences.
What? S paper? Oh screw S paper. It wont affect my results anyway, as far as im concerned, 2 years' worth of slogging will be over in less than 24 hours. Gosh im excited. Even the O Levels wasnt this exciting. (but i hope i do just as well tho.. -gulp-) Heck it, its gonna be over soon. Couldnt even sit still to study well today, was super restless and jumpy. Hahah talk about kancheong spider. So i'll study tomorrow morning, the whole of sunday (hope i can cram everything for s paper in one day.. even if i cant.. screw it) and then no more studying for 2.5 years!
Hooray hooray all my party people put your hands up!! As that brainless (but wonderfully funny) song goes..
If you've got a 100 dollar bill put your hands up! If you've got a 50 dollar bill put your hands up! If you've got a 20 dollar bill put your hands up! If you've got a 10 dollar bill put your hands up!
Hahaha! Why did i write that for? Who cares? Its gonna be over!
he rocked the party at 7:39 AM |
Sunday, November 23, 2003
You know the feeling: it comes out subtly first, with that gnawing in your chest somewhere between your heart and your left collarbone. Just that little devil placing a forbidden thought at the back of your head, and you decide to play around with that idea, just for a little while... couldnt hurt to just imagine it, after all. Dum dee dum.. its quite a nice thought really, certainly very attractive, and the costs arent THAT bad really. Hmmm.
'Course, it would cause you a whole lot of trouble, but you dont want to be wasting your life on the safe lane now do you? *ponder ponder ponder*
Course, as the weeks go by, you find every excuse to support that cause. Seems like everything that happens comes in favour of that particular thought, and soon it becomes not a taboo, but an extremely viable option.. Yummy yum yum.
You'd just love to know what im thinking about dont you? -grin-
(its nothing sick, so stop letting your imagination run wild) Still, its too yummy to even hint it, so i shan't say anything. And do not try to infer from the above paragraph to find clues, for you shall find none.
Its just fun playing with that tiny itty bitty idea.
C'mon, you know what im talking about, you've felt it too haven't you?
ps: dear readers, im extremely irritated, for reasons you dont have to know.
he rocked the party at 7:36 AM |
Saturday, November 22, 2003
I have faith that God's going to make everything all right. (thank you to my girl chienling, cynthia, and walid!) Yup. Minor screwups indeed, small liddle itty bitty incy wincy spider crawling up the water spout, waiting for the rain of my super intelligence and exam-savvy to drown it and flush it down the loo!! (You see, the spider represents all the screwups, which i have decided to believe are minor and insignificant, and the rain represents all the other stuff i do to make up those errors! But of course you knew that, why am i telling you this for?)
Yup, ive prayed about it, and i have faith. I'll just "leave it to God" as Mrs Kang says (yes im quoting THAT gp teacher.. decided that she's nice after all la, tho albeit the ahem) Cause God decides whatever that's best for you and i! So for all you people who're wondering about what's gonna come out of these damn A levels, just say a little prayer, and leave it to God. :P
(okay lionel getting all reflective there and stuff.)
I cant wait for this to end! Nine more days.. nine more days.. *deranged pulling out of tufts of hair*
Here's a little food for thought.. do the A Levels really matter? Yeah they're useful for getting into uni and for a scholarship and all, but i doubt they'll count for much in the real world.. your potential employer's going to be more interested in your 1st class honours rather than your 4 As.. (still, i WOULD like a set of nice grades, and stop bluffing, so would you!) Yeah, but personally, i think A Levels is more a "i believe i can do it so i wanna prove it" kind of thing, just would like to prove that, in Eminem's words, "you can do anything you set your mind to" Yup. Its possible and i WILL do it. *growl* What are your views on the dreaded As, dear reader?
A thought into the future: I have more or less decided on NTU's school of info and comm over NUS's school of business. Since 1) you dont NEED a business degree for anything, 2) was considering NTU for really long now, cept that parents had their objections, but they'll let me go for it if i want to, 3) PR/journalism is a great job, tho a little kiss-ass one, 4) NTU has a fantastic dance team, and 5) was a little swayed by a certain friend who sounds like an NTU brochure. -grin- Hello!
he rocked the party at 5:58 AM |
Friday, November 21, 2003
I hate this feeling. Know that feeling when you KNOW you could have done better, when its not a question of preparation, intelligence, perception, but just sheer plain dumb bad luck? Geez. What's up with this A Levels? Been plagued with this crap for paper after paper.. but today was the ultimate. Grr. Imagine: the friggin' potential difference was FIVE FRIGGIN VOLTS! Wrote that down initially, ended the paper early, checked it through, somehow changed it to SIX FRIGGIN VOLTS cause I MISREAD MY OWN GRAPH, altered all my calculations just before the time ended, only to find out later that the original answer was correct. Not to mention forgetting to look at the last page which contains 3 marks, mistaking the voltage for an r.m.s value... aragh.
I hate regrets. I mean, if something came out which i really didnt know, i wouldnt feel this bad cause well, its my fault for not studying hard enough. But when i lose marks for stupid things like these i honestly feel like banging my head on the wall till i forget about it. (yeah i just did it)
Dont you just hate the feeling? That you COULD HAVE maximised your potential, COULD HAVE done better, but didnt, and it wasnt even your fault! (okay so i was blur) Dammit i hope this doesnt cost me my grade. Im seriously starting to wonder if i should lower my expectations cause the fear of disappointment is growing.. And if i do get grades lower than i expected, i'll be forever wondering if i COULD HAVE done better.. sheesh. Please dont let that happen..
I feel like crap.
Pray for me, please? -sigh-
he rocked the party at 6:36 AM |
Monday, November 17, 2003
Yes i know its only been a day since the last post, but i just realised its not THAT long a time till the end of the A levels after all... i just decided that for myself while taking a shower. Hmm. I'll bet 2 weeks will pass by in a flash!
Leeeet's see... after the As, i have to:
1) Buy pants for grad night, which must be baggy enough to fit my coat but not baggy enough till it looks street-ish.
2) Buy leather shoes, cause i think my sis threw my last pair out of the window. I cant find the damn things. Ahh, they were lousy ol BATA leather shoes anyway. (But they still looked classy!)
3) Kick in the hardcore prepare-for-commandos training regime! Strength training and running/swimming on alternate mornings. Have a feeling i'll be hanging around the YCK CC gym a lot soon.
4) Go to Japan (bleargh)
5) Spend proper quality time with her (hooray)
6) Watch matrix revolutions, ong bak, LOTR, as well as vcds of recruit, matrix reloaded, 8 mile (again) urban legends..
7) Go for Patrick's hip-hop dance classes again at Jitterbugs, after a 6 months absence.. hey TJ people! Let's go together yeah? They're opening their new place in Jan with MIRRORS and stuff. woah. Anyway, i need this last contact with aesthetics before i lose all contact with dance altogether when i enter commandos.
8) Go clubbing! Yeah was kind of sick of it since this year, but admittedly, i miss it. Know of two parties going on already... china black on e 1st and 8th of december.. all right! Debbie, kuansian, jenn, zx, fio, glen, jaime and other clubbing khakis interested? Ahhh yes.. e good ol days indeed... when we could stay at the bar downing drinks, talking rubbish, and laughing at some perv on the dance floor trying to get fresh with an unsuspecting girl.. *misty eyes*
9) Learn how to cook proper dishes (instant noodles, my specialty, is sadly not counted.)
10) Learn how to sew so i can survive in the army in case a button pops off my uniform, den at least i wont get screwed by the officers and get my head dunked in water. Can get into fellow commandos' good books by saving them from the same fate too. (peer appraisal is one of e criteria for ocs!!)
11) Catch up with long long long lost friends (thank goodness for friendster) and newfound TJ ones!
12) Get a tan
13) Get a proper commando body (now that's tough)
14) Learn how to play soccer, basketball and other kinds of balls properly. I've had enough of sucking at ball games. (hee.. that was meant to sound sick.)
15) Sell my books and notes to the karanguni man, bet i can make a fortune.
16) Somehow find the time to learn how to drive.
17) Attend my class chalet.
18) Prepare for wonderful ol Christmas!
19) Repent for all my sins. (yes i have alot. hahaha)
20) Stop writing crap on my blog and do up a nice new one.
Whew! So many things, so little time.. Aragh... stupid A Levels... get it over and done with!
he rocked the party at 7:31 AM |
Sunday, November 16, 2003
aragh. i cant stop thinking about how much fun we'll have after the A levels.
I hate this period of time, stuck in the middle of the culmination of the rat race, wanting to get up on top but not caring at the same time.
Set me free!!
2 weeks seems like forever now, isnt it weird how time passes so fast when you're preparing for the exams, but it slows down to a crawl once it starts? Every day seems like a slow, prolonged struggle: the sun rises, bright beautiful and warm, (perfect for a swim or a day at the beach) you drag yourself out of bed, wonder what to study today, drag your feet to novena or wherever, stay there with your butt affixed to the hard plastic seat for 7 hours, have your dinner, and drag your feet home again to repeat the cycle! Lovely yes? *sniffs* ahhhh.. the wonderful pleasant aroma of a rountine mundane life. (actually, this kind of sounds like what adults do in their working lives, except that they get to sleep in on sunday while we dont. Shit, i dont want to grow up either.. have you ever been to Mohd Sultan on a regular non-jc clubbing friday night? It pathetically empty.. right debbie? Or maybe we just went to the wrong clubs, adults cant be THAT sad)
Anyway, i digress. Stupid Cambridge people, who the heck comes up with these timetables anyway? Cant they just cram everything into next week? Grrrr.. (Shaddap all you dont-take-physics-or-s-paper people, i hope you get so bored from rotting at home you'll WISH you had exams!! hah! Okay sorry, a bit of anguish there..hee)
I just want it to end... so sick of the whole drill already.
A sidethought: I found a new gym near my house! Its great.. nice, empty, with all e equipment you need. -rubs hands in glee- Time to get my train-up-for-NS regime started!
he rocked the party at 7:47 AM |
Thursday, November 13, 2003
4 days down and halfway into the war, looks like i've been too cocky.
Yes, i've eaten a lot humble pie for the past few days, and i'm starting to feel shit. Here's the update of the war:
Maths: Its over!! Whoopeedoo, both papers were relatively easy, was the first time in my life i know how to do all the questions for both papers. amazing. Looks like maths tuition paid off. Minus all the careless mistakes and "think-im-right-but-actually-im-not" or TIRBAIN mistakes, an 'A' is highly possible! (of course, half of singapore would think it was easy too, so im not sure.)
Econs: Pissed off with it. Really. Essays were okay, but given the severe shortage of time, worse-than-a-doctor's handwriting, the biting cold, combined with nervousness, im pretty sure i could have done better. The essays sure weren't outstanding in any way. MCQs were the only ones i feel proud of, managed to do quite okay for them, only found 2 mistakes so far. IM SUPER PISSED OFF WITH CASE STUDY. Like i totally f***-ed up the last 12 mark question, misread it cause i had only 10 minutes to do it, and wrote two pages of irrelevant rubbish. Been brooding about it the whole day. Only a sinful afternoon of watching 8 mile, the recruit and half of matrix reloaded, accompanied with instant noodles helped me get over it. But im still cheesed off even though i know there's nothing i can do about it. i hope it doesnt screw my A. Im taking S paper dammit. So embarrassing if i get a B or C for it... and given that bloody question, its suddenly became a possible possibility (possible possibility.. that has a nice ring to it) Oh man please let me get my A aragh.
GP: Another screwed up piece of rubbish. I panicked when i couldnt find essays on globalisation and education to write about, so ended up scribbling down my econs knowledge on a "to what extent are small businesses preferable to large ones?" essay. Shit. I have a bad feeling about it. I tried my best to sound as non econ-ish as possible, but dunno how well i did. Plus i had to elaborate and not exceed the 800 word limit, so i couldnt write that many points too. Bleargh. And dont even talk about comprehension, my first time doing and paper and not feeling good about it. You know the feeling of writing something down even though you know its wrong cause you've got nothing else to write? Yeah that was me for 1.5 hours. Im so dead for GP really, i'll be happy to get a B4. (ahh, who needs an A for a stupid AO subject anyway? Not as if im going to Law or whatever.. but it WOULD be nice to get one yes? -thinking wistfully-)
Oh how how how how how how how how.... i suddenly feel this enormous pressure cramming down on me, and the possibility that my grades will suck just became apparant. Been so cocky and confident for the past few weeks, perhaps because of my unexpectedly good prelim results.. but all that's gone now, replaced by the gnawing dread of fear. Shit i really dont want to screw up. I want to come back for college day next year to get a prize for three or four As, i sure as heck do not want 4 Bs..
Have i told you my 4 Sub People Theory?:
"Lionel's 4 Sub Theory states that 4 sub people should get at least 3 As, because if you were to get 2 As and 2 Bs or anything below that, you'll feel like shit cause you'll be wondering if only you'd dropped one subject you may have been able to convert that 1 B into an A."
So yeah, i DO want my 3 or 4 As.. i admit it. Who doesnt? I've done my best for Maths, now there's only physics and chem left to redeem myself, and i musnt screw up.
I cant screw up... have to work even harder. There's just too much at stake, and too many people to prove wrong: like my parents, who wanted me to go to VJ with my 7 points, so have to prove to them that staying in SA wasnt a mistake, or my (super intelligent) classmates, who think im crazy for taking 4 subs, my council, to show that joining council wasnt a mistake, my love life, for proving that prelims is not too early a time to get into a relationship, myself, to prove that i can do it..
Oh balls. So no pressure eh? Hahahaha.. 2 weeks and 4 days more. I can do it. Heck, i'll fight to the end, and if A Levels whacks me, i'll go down fighting!
he rocked the party at 8:12 AM |
Monday, November 10, 2003
First day of the A levels down.. admittedly, it was much better than i expected. Maths was a no-brainer, and i didnt have any other complaints for econs other than the lack of time.
Still i somehow feel extremely stifled as it is already. Perhaps its because of the 2 papers in one day for 2 days in a row thing... bleargh. I honestly think ive got the worst time table of all, start the earliest, end the latest! (and i mean, the LATEST: 1st december!) Plus the shitty timings and all. Aragh
(Hello Mr Sunshine! I see you're very optimistic today)
Oh keep quiet. Just let me rant.
I want it to be over! (and i want to do well too) So help me.
I think im too self-obsessed. i should stop ranting.
Oh screw it.
he rocked the party at 7:19 AM |
Saturday, November 08, 2003
The letter came today!
"1. Please refer to your letter...regarding...Lionel to be posted to another unit to serve his full-time national service. (NSF)
2. The assignment of full-time national servicemen is based on selection criteria such as educational qualifications, medical fitness, and manpower requirement of each service. As Lionel has been found suitable for enlistment to the Commandos, we regret that is not possible to accede to your request.
3.Lionel will be enlisted into 1st Commando Battalion on 28 Jan 04 as planned. I take this opportunity to wish Lionel the very best in NSF training."
Oh well. At least they didnt think i was civil defence material. -grin-
Heck la, i'll just chiong sua and garang for the next 2 years. May even find it kind of fun. (in a warped, sadistic sort of way)
As the motto goes, "For Honour and Glory". Here i come, red beret!
he rocked the party at 8:41 AM |
Friday, November 07, 2003
There's only two days left.. aragh. So much to cover.
Help help help help.
But frankly, i should be okay right? Been mugging okay.
Aragh. Just hope it pays off.
3 weeks and 2 days more!!
(ok for most of you, dear readers, its 2 weeks and 5 days more. For those not taking phy or those in arts fac, its even shorter! But i have irritating stupid econs S paper which is like 5 days after everyone's last paper. Am very tempted to just heck it and not turn up on that day)
he rocked the party at 9:58 AM |
Monday, November 03, 2003
Yes, i really SHOULD update my blog soon yes?
Ahhhhh sorry.
You know, the same old rubbish: mug mug mug mug, dinner, mug mug mug, come back and bathe, FRIENDSTER!, sleep.
Where does one find time for blogging?
Oh btw, latest news on the Appeal For Normal BMT
Commander sent me a letter: "we have received your request and are looking into it. We will inform you of the outcome as soon as possible."
Guess i wont be in commandos anymore (half yay!)
Its either going up or down from now on...
Please please please please let me get into the army. Please please please please.. i dont even mind going in on 1st jan... just dont post me to police, civil defence or some rubbish like that.
he rocked the party at 9:24 AM |
