Friday, November 21, 2003
I hate this feeling. Know that feeling when you KNOW you could have done better, when its not a question of preparation, intelligence, perception, but just sheer plain dumb bad luck? Geez. What's up with this A Levels? Been plagued with this crap for paper after paper.. but today was the ultimate. Grr. Imagine: the friggin' potential difference was FIVE FRIGGIN VOLTS! Wrote that down initially, ended the paper early, checked it through, somehow changed it to SIX FRIGGIN VOLTS cause I MISREAD MY OWN GRAPH, altered all my calculations just before the time ended, only to find out later that the original answer was correct. Not to mention forgetting to look at the last page which contains 3 marks, mistaking the voltage for an r.m.s value... aragh.
I hate regrets. I mean, if something came out which i really didnt know, i wouldnt feel this bad cause well, its my fault for not studying hard enough. But when i lose marks for stupid things like these i honestly feel like banging my head on the wall till i forget about it. (yeah i just did it)
Dont you just hate the feeling? That you COULD HAVE maximised your potential, COULD HAVE done better, but didnt, and it wasnt even your fault! (okay so i was blur) Dammit i hope this doesnt cost me my grade. Im seriously starting to wonder if i should lower my expectations cause the fear of disappointment is growing.. And if i do get grades lower than i expected, i'll be forever wondering if i COULD HAVE done better.. sheesh. Please dont let that happen..
I feel like crap.
Pray for me, please? -sigh-
he rocked the party at 6:36 AM |
