Thursday, September 11, 2003
I'm really grossed out by myself. Sorry for e mushy past few entries. -embarrassed- wahaha
anyways, how is everyone doing? Bloody prelims and all.. gosh its pressurizing (re: debbie's friend received a letter from HARVARD! What kind of rubbish is that?! sheesh some people get all the luck.) Well deb, i'd really love to "hao lian to each other our cambridge and oxford we'll-be-gobsmacked-if-u-dont-choose-to-come-to-our-school letters" but at the rate im going.. hmm. i'd be happy enough to hao lian a letter from NUS thank you very much. Poor dreams, yes.
i dont know if its the same for everyone else, i know isky agrees with me on this part: Im bloody sick of studying. The usual reassuring panicky exam mugging mode which drives you to mug for 12 hours a day, ever present in block test 1 has disappeared. And the super slack, boh-chup attitude of not caring about exams yet scoring miraculously well of block test 2 has gone to the winds too! What is present now is the strange worst-of-both-worlds feelings of "hmm prelims is really important, your future is at stake you slacker! But dammit ive been looking at this page of notes for 1 hour with nothing going in, and i just want to burn it all and enjoy what is supposed to be the hols" Sorta like a I-really-want-to-do-well-oh-but-screw-the-studying kind of attitude, know what i mean?
What the heck's happening to me?
Dont get me wrong, i know prelims are bloody important. Im waking up at 7 everyday just so i can get to school by 8 to mug for the entire day. But somehow the mugging doesnt seem to be giving quite so many reassuringly satisfying headaches (yes i know its contradicting, but the fact that you've got a headache tells u you've studied your best) im going at a really slow rate, been falling asleep more, and getting really really distracted. Hmm. Just feel so damn sick of the whole drill, know what i mean? So bored to death of school, of staring at the same old info over and over again.. bleargh.
i dunno, what do all of you think? feel the same way?
I desperately need some inspiration/intimidation. Whatever works more effectively. Deb's friend with the harvard letter's scary, but i need something more to hit me.
(please dont really come up to me and hit me. -grin- looks like the corniness isnt gone yet)
he rocked the party at 10:18 AM |
