Wednesday, September 17, 2003
(Villian in the movie S.W.A.T: "I will give $100 million dollars to whoever who gets me out of here!")
Yes please DO get me out of this sickening state of gultiness, headaches, complaining, messy unstapled notes, unhealthy oily Long John's, BK, Bishan Macs dinners every single day, desperate scanning through TYS, falling asleep on my chair, sense of hopelessness... Get prelims over and done with!!
There's only so much one can take. As much as i wanted to study study study a month ago, and as little as i'm prepared, im sick sick sick of the bloody exams, of worrying, and of all the vices of prelims. Well i suppose i should be thankful the prelims arent as bad as i imagined they would be, i suppose i could scrape a pass for maths, econs and chem (provided tmr's paper 1 doesnt screw up). Dont even talk about bloody physics. im so pissed at the physics department.
Let's sidetrack a little and let me bitch ok? Joel asked this question today: what do you think is the main purpose of prelims: to motivate and scare you for the A levels by giving you frighteningly difficult papers so you screw up and not feel complacent, or to give you a good realistic feel of the actual exam? Obviously, it SHOULD be the latter, but it seems our dear physics department has suddenly decided that we are all geniuses, jumping from TYS-based questions for the past 2 years to S-paper material for prelims. Wonderful huh? The most important exam in our JC life, one which helps determine our scholarships, whether we get into OCS, our motivation for A levels, and they say "why dont we screw them with a hard paper this time round?"
Its NOT as if i didnt study. Ok yes, granted i didnt pay as much attention for physics as the other subjects but i never study hard for it anyway and i've never gotten below a B.. sheesh i'd be happy to get an E this time round. There goes my happy record. From the looks of it, seems the highest grade they'll get from all the students is a C, and a low one at that. Sheesh even the scholars in my class were stumped, and we're not the top physics class for nothing. Hah. That'll be something to see: Entire Cohort Fails Physics! Whoohoo!
Ah screw it. I've never been one to dwell on what's already happened. So even if i do screw up, there's bound to be people who screwed up worse than me, so there's comfort in that. (Forgive the sadist attitude) But today just made me feel so sick of the whole prelim drill, just want to cast it all aside and heck, get it over with!! Very tempted not to go to school and skip the next 2 papers. Who cares how well or how badly i do, its only frickin prelims, with my physics grades, its not as if i'll be getting a Cambridge letter anytime soon (sorry Deb, its now up to you!)
Two more days to go.. this is agony. I want to burn all my notes and drink and party till i forget who i am. This is pure, slow and sweet torture. 2 more papers and 2 more days! And its not even the A Levels yet. (But then again, the A levels wont last this long.. and the papers will surely be much easier.. i hope)
Aragh!
You are my only thread to sanity. Thank you for being there today. Love you!
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